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I have come to find that I can be my own worst enemy. 

 Its hard to beleive that for years I had an incredible sense of entitlement about my weight.  I know that sounds crazy but for the longest time..in my head, I would think that because I was good to everyone else, worked hard and sacraficed for others…I was entitled to eat whatever I wanted!!!!   It never dawned on me that thru justifiing my eating grotesque eating habits, I was killing myself.

I don’t want to die anytime soon.  I defintely do not want the pain of regret for having umpteen opportunites to lose weight and choosing to do nothing about it.  It is true there are only 2 real pains.   The pain of discipline/obedience or the pain of regret.   The pain of discipline/obedience only lasts for awhile…but the pain of regret is eternal.

This time in choosing the pain of discipline/obedience I am finally realizing some results.  I now walk at least a mile a day and an extra 4-5 miles on the weekend.  When I started this process I was excited enough to write and entire blog entry on the thrill of beig able to walk 1/2 mile a day with weekends off!

The point I wish to make is that for those of us who have been morbidly obese for decades, the defeatest attitude we develop over so many non-successful attempts to lose weight actually talks us out of being successful.

When I started saying..I CAN…I DID!!!   For the 1st time in nearly 3 decades I finally BELIEVE I will make it this time.  The biggest reason for that is I started behaving like a success instead of feeling like a failure!

Saturday, Sunday and Monday I went for a long walk with my husband.  It was not about pace, I could go as slow as I wanted.  He was trying to help me with my distance and my stamina.  It was certainly a wonderful sense of accomplishment…although I am quite sore today.  

I have really come to enjoy walking.  It has defintely become my friend.   It is also wonderful to see my husband taking a genuine interest in helping me reach my goals. 

Well, thats all for now.  Hope everyone has a great week!

This week I have noticed that I have started to do a very good thing, quite unintentionally.  Where I used to reach for my favorite comfort foods, I am now looking to go for a walk.  

Alittle background about me, last May my mother died unexpectedly.   My parents had been married for 55 years and my father was actually the one in worse health.  In August my husband and I moved in with him to take care of him.  I don’t know what I was thinking but neither man is a push over and now nearly a year later it is quite diffcult living in a house with 2 men where both think they’re king…one is always wrong. And I am caught in the middle.

Getting back to the walking.   I have noticed when things get very stressful around here it is now more comforting for me to get away for a few minutes and walk then to just stuff something in my mouth.

I dont beleive things are going to change between my husband and my father. But at least I found a positive way of dealing with some of the stress.

Well I am happy to report that I stayed faithful to my walking this week.  I walked 1/2 mile a day Monday thru Friday.  I promised myself that if I stayed faithful all week I would allow myself weekends off.  Funny thing …I think I may just walk anyway…I’m actually getting to like it…1 thing I know for sure..I wont be getting up at my usual 5am to do it!

I have struggled with the scale for along time.  I have thought about this for a few days and I have decided to weigh in once per month. 

 I beleive that too much emphasis is placed on the number on the scale and not the effort that is being put into change.   I am going to take my measurements.  That way even if the number on the scale is not what I think it should be, I will still be able to see progress in the lessening of my size.   We all know muscle weighs more then fat and I beleive we sabotage ourselves when we start to exercise and trade fat for muscle and then get disappointed when the scale does not move..or worse yet..goes UP!

I am doing my best to take all the lessons I have learned from 2+ decades of dieting and trying to come up the right combination. 

Has anyone else tried this, if so, how did it work for you??

Thanks in advance for your input.

I started getting up at 5am last week and going for a walk before I had to get ready for work.  I walked 10 mins away from the house and then turned around and came back.  I did that for 3 days. 

 My ankles, knees and hips are sore but I can honestly say that I had much more energy to get through the day.  I went an bought new sneakers today and I am looking forward to my Monday morning stroll.   I decided that excerise was going to be a Monday thru Friday deal..with weekends off.  Hubby thought that was a good plan too.  He even goes with me some mornings!

Thats all I have for now…will keep everyone advised of my progress!

I am a 46 year old woman who has been obese for over 25 years.  I have recently gotten married for the second time and my new husband is 13 years younger then me. 

We have both recently realized that if we are going to have a healthy happy and productive future together we  both have to lose a significant amount of weight.  My biggest problem is lack of motivation to exercise.  We have managed to get the food consumption under control with portion control and controlling what we allow in the house (which isn’t much these days) .  Exercise is not a problem for my husband as he recently took a job where he is physically active for 9 hrs a day.  I work in an office.

 I am hoping to learn how others stay motivated.  Any suggestions would be greatly appreicated .

Thanks